I wasn’t looking forward to this
project.
Admittedly, after reading the
instructional page about the definition of a “mash-up”, I just wasn’t
impressed. It was this vague concept that I didn’t understand and that I’d never
heard of before. All I knew is that it seemed like a very complicated and
time-consuming endeavor, and that I wasn’t excited to create one at all. What
would I have gained after it was over? Even after it was fully explained to me and
I was exposed to few example mash-ups I remained skeptical of its usefulness.
Remember doing those cut-up magazine
picture collages in kindergarten? Mash-ups are like the grown up version of
that; except with less pictures and much more writing. Organized around a
central theme, the goal is to pull different “elements” from as many different
sources and influences as possible, before finally arranging them together so
they flow like they were created by the same consciousness. Our assignment was
to create one of these mash-ups focused around a concept in Jane Eyre; so my partner and I chose to
investigate emotional and rational love. All my life I had been fully convinced
that true love has nothing to do with rationality or reason. My opinion was
that love is supposed to be senseless, because that’s what makes it so
powerful. The idea of a rational type of love held no bearing with me, I would
never fall in love based on logic, but it did present and interesting idea to
explore.
My partner and I were required to
use at least eleven sources from within Jane Eyre to connect to our concepts.
At first, I thought this was going to be a burdensome ordeal, and that any
useful passages would be imprecise or difficult to connect to our concept; especially
since working as a duo meant we needed even more evidence from within Jane Eyre than a single person would
need. My partner was thought that we would find a lot of interesting ideas
about the value of logical love; but I remained unconvinced. I thought it was a
cute idea to find parts of Jane Eyre that talked about her love for different
people, but I was by no means expecting to be influenced by it. This was a
fictional story, not a scientific study or a testimonial, so how could it
possibly convince me to change my mind about logical love? However, it wasn’t
long before the pieces began to fall together.
It was easy to find sections of Jane Eyre that related to rational and ones
that related to logical love; in fact it wasn’t that hard to find passages that
referred to BOTH. It was this observation that enlightened me to the
possibility that rational and emotional love acted together, instead of as
opposing forces. This was a revolutionary idea to me, as I had always been a
believer in passionate true love that had nothing to do with logic. I went from
being 100% convinced that love was irrational to actually seeing what a huge
amount of influence logic had on even the most passionate of loves. I was surprised
how easily I accepted this new revelation; and looking back, I think it’s
because the mash-up was the perfect platform to provide the evidence that
convinced me.
Not only was I being shown the
connection of logic and emotion through Jane
Eyre, but I was also scouring the internet looking for more real-life
connections, which were plentiful and convincing. For example, I found a
picture of a mother tiger raising baby piglets. My initial thought was that
this perfectly illustrated how irrational love was; how could a bloodthirsty,
predatory tigress have motherly love for a defenseless piglet? However, upon
further research, I discovered that the reason the mother tiger even had a
chance to feel love for the piglets was because the piglets’ real mother had died
and the zoo needed a replacement to raise the piglets. The mother tiger was
actually fulfilling a very rational and necessary role in this situation as a
mother to orphaned piglets. The real-life connection of logical and emotional
loves had me stunned.
At the end of this project, I
realized that I have a critical flaw that I haven’t realized: I am stubborn. This
was a surprise to me: I’ve never considered myself a stubborn person. I'm usually able to put my own convictions aside to look at things with an open mind, but I realize this is only when I am actively attempting to do so. When someone tells me to keep and open mind about an idea, I can usually do it; but what about all the times I never thought to do so? I've never considered that without thinking about it, I've developed and maintained certain stubborn viewpoints, but it
can’t be denied that I went into this project fully convinced of logical love’s
unimportance and left the project feeling the opposite. Not only that, but thinking back to it, before I even started the project I had been convinced that a mash-up was a confusing
and useless assignment. I can guarantee now that I feel the exact opposite.
This mash-up took me through an incredible thought process that managed to shift
my convictions about one of the most important concepts on Earth: love. Next
time I’ll remember this and how little I actually know about even the most
important things around me, and I won’t need so much convincing next time to
keep my mind open to controversial ideas.
Katy, I thoroughly enjoyed reading your blog and your thoughts on the Jane Eyre Mash-up. It is amazing to me how almost everyone in our class came into the project thinking that this was just going to be another tedious, time consuming progect that we had to do. However, for many, it turned out to be the most thought provoking and learning facilitative project that we have done ever. Honestly, when I first saw Mr. Allen's mash-up example and how well everything flowed together, I didn't understand how this was possible. I thought that I would never be able to achieve this fluidity in my own mash-up. However, the mash-up, as it did for so many others proved me wrong. It was mind-blowing to see all of my evidence come together as if it was meant to be. I could not believe how everything I had found magically all related in a perfect stream of consciousness. The mash-up proved my previous assertions completely wrong and brought me to the conclusion that you can never reject something that you do not fully understand. Thanks for your post.
ReplyDeleteKaty,
ReplyDeleteWonderful post! Your thoughts really resonated with me. What I love about your commentary is how you recognized that not only did the mash-up experience teach you about Jane Eyre, but also about yourself. It amazes me that a high school English project caused you to come to conclusions about such complex ideas like love and your individual mind. This is especially important considering you weren't even looking forward to this project! I believe that your blog post demonstrates the significance of learning in a different type of way. This mash-up was very unconventional. However, I believe it taught me much more than a single test could ever do. As you mentioned, it managed to "shift my convictions about one of the most important concepts on Earth: love." This single sentence is living proof that the mash-up was a very worthwhile and rewarding experience. I wish that we could have more of these assignments in school. Thank you for sharing!
Katy, I think we both went into this project with at least one concern in common: that there would not be enough textual evidence in the book to back up our claim, which you seemed more skeptical about than I did from a gut-feeling standpoint. With that being said, I was surprised to see that you were so shocked and yet so willing to pursue the thesis that we did, considering that you characterized yourself as stubborn. (Which, by the way, I think you really exaggerate.)
ReplyDeleteI think I also had a hard time accepting that there was a rational side of love that “works” because I didn’t really pick up on the fact that it is a part of Jane Eyre until the later chapters with St. John. I didn’t like what I saw. In fact, I kind of hated St. John.
Eleven pieces of evidence from the beginning, middle, and end of Jane Eyre seemed daunting, and for a day or so I was truly convinced that working in a duo would be a bad idea because it required that we gather extra evidence. At first I also thought we’d have to take passages out of context. (Not to be confused with the “decontextualizing” and “recontextualizing” that was called for... I mean straight-up twist sections of Jane Eyre into the mashup.)
Given that we were both so skeptical I was wondering why in the world we ended up pursuing the complicated mashup we did from the start. Part of my reasoning was simply that if you thought it was crazy, you probably would have either decided to work with someone else or convinced me that we needed to change our direction entirely.
In other words, since you didn’t think it was insane, that lead me to believe the same thing. I suspect that if we had been working alone, neither of us would have had the courage to pursue the thesis that we did.